When life throws lemons at you, freeze them into hard balls and throw them at all the evils in you… procrastination, lethargy, lack of confidence, etc:- You know the flaws. Attack them. Coz as long as they still reside within you, you will be rendered a useless person. Thats because you’ll never be at your best and produce mediocre results.
Its not only about showing results. Its about Self Improvment. The Zeal to Change and not stagnate like a water lily in a well!
Its within you, all that potential!
James Van Praagh says,
“When we were born, everything we need to fulfill our soul’s plan in this lifetime is burried deep within our souls. Everything you want to know is already within you.”
So what are you waiting for? Its time you answer your Calling.
Nostalgia hits me as Soul Outside (composed by Antonio Pinto) plays and I type in perhaps my last post from my darling desktop, for this month. I’ll be back home, in June. Until then…
Home is where the heart is… and my Heart is where my family is… where I have memories that I relish. To sleep in my room where I grew up bests every other palatial residence you’d ever provide to me. My Home is my base zero. Its where I come to rejuvenate and de-stress. The world may go haywire… but if Im home surrounded by the people I love, I know its going to be okay.
But College is my other reality and it awaits me. My heart is still stuck here. Yet, I need to make my decision. I’ve filled up my Jar of Hope and Cans of Love… ready to face the world.
Come what may, I’m prepared to face it. Its time the puzzle pieces start falling in place… and the map that was once bleak begins to appear clearly. Its time Destiny unravels itself to me. And I’m ready.
Gratitude is all I have to offer. And Greatness is all Im going to accept.
Just have to be strong. So, I pray Im able to do justice to my work and dharma… to reach where I will reach…
I don’t want love, sympathy, Disneyland or Vero Moda tops. I don’t want to drive a Bentley or sip lattes at Starbucks. Right now, I want to go home. This is what I need.
Sometimes you enter the wrong frame on a wall and you can’t help but peek into others. A comment by a Senior Architect Satyaprakash on my sketch of the Kingdom of Poseidon has got me thinking about it…
“Are you peeking into the Kingdom of Poseidon? Create your own “
When you’re stuck outside your dream, you feel lost even if the compass is within your grasp.
Its time to get the clockworks to function again, grease them up for the smooth action. Time to put away useless stuff and look for the memories and objectives that got lost in the ratrace to nothingness.
Do what you’re passionate about. Do it the way you like. And see what happens. We are all duty bound. But we need to see the bigger picture. Cant be stuck up in the same reel.
Forgive yourself, dear one. Start with that. Reconcile your feelings with your actions. Get real.
Make it happen
Everything changes, when realisation sets in
Its always easier to go with the ‘flow’ … doing what other’s do, liking what others like (despite it being far from your taste) … listening to what everyone else has to say,both before you and behind your back. Hurt and the desire for being socially accepted, forces you to allow them to mould your persona according to them. And this cages your soul. And you suffocate. You wish to reach out for help.
But then again, who is really there for you?
If you have a soul who cares for you unconditionally, then blessed you are. But what if you’re a little lonely. What if you have no one to talk to every night, before you sleep…to talk about how you narrowly escaped getting hit by a bus or how you aced a certain test or how you created the most beautiful design ? Someone who’s words matter to you. Someone who’s experiences make you wonder, who’s incidents interest you… someone you want to give your time and concern to? Someone who’d know you are upset by a simple hesitation in your voice. Someone who’d come to your aid at your beck and call? Someone who simply exists in coherence with you despite a difference in your opinions, at times. That’s alright.
But if you only yearn for such a company… putting all your hopes on a person who doesn’t reciprocate your affections. Then, dear you, you need to get over it. If its not working out, don’t push so hard. Let it be. What is meant to be, will be. Or otherwise.
Do not “search” for courage and hope. Its within you. I know it sounds rather open ended.
But trust me, another person’s presence in your life is just a warm blanket wrapping yourbody on acold night. But the heat generated is all yours.
That’s the simplest way I can explain the quote :
Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage” – Lao Tzu
A lovely quote that makes you feel lonely but hey there… fret not. Like SHM says, The Heaven’s Got A Plan For You !
You’re made of stronger stuff than you can imagine.
The path may seem rough, the decisions hard to make and even more tiresome to follow up. But you have to give it your best paying no heed to distractions.
You have trustworthy friends, Golden parents, loving siblings… all of whom can help you be strong. I understand they leave and return from time to time as they have occupations of their own but … they are there for you…they have your back. They help you everytime you fall…no matter how hard or how deep. The love is ever flowing. The concern is endless.
So until that Someone who can be your blanket on cold nights enters your life (and probably sing Jason Mraz and Coldplay to you)… you better value those who comfort you, already and make hay while the sun shines. Oppurtunities are to grab.
Do not worry if the people outside don’t accept you or jeer at your behavior. Value those who do accept you whole heartedly with all your flaws and perfections. Those who hurt your emotions, do not matter.Remember, only fools hide their lack of smartness by rudeness
So forgive them , instead of trying to be like them. Go with the flow but be ready to swim outta the rough waters, if you have to. You are not entitled to any prempted life story. You write your own.
Hope this helps those who read it. Helped me, while I wrote it.
Honestly I love everyone I can And Im glad you paid a visit to this post. Hope you gained.
A poem I just wrote for those who need to know that life has much more to it than what they se. And wondering about others n drawing conclusions should be your last priority. Thank you.
I know naught ,
What you talk bout
Or what you believe
All I know
Is Im Lost
Between the Lines
Of your definitions.
You pretend to be
On top of the world
Trying to lead
The flock around you.
You see everything
Except the bigger picture.
I pity your
All I hope
Is that you are freed
From your facade
To see the reality.
Stop judging people
According to the delusions
That you reside with
Believing in your perfection.
Everybody have lives
With their own
Bundles and burdens that
They cant escape from.
So let them be.
And stop wondering bout others
When your own life
Is turning into rubble.
We have one life
To live and to love.
So breathe free
And let them be
My life. My decision. Of course I may have to play by others’ rules sometimes but I guess these thimgs go hand in hand.
I have a dream and Im gonna live up to it. Im not going to let my reality be a dreamstealer and come in my way.
I need to FIND time. If you’re passionate about something, you’ll find time for it You wont beat around the bush. Dont let silly things get in ur way. Keep fighting hard. This is a test to check your worth and reselience !
In this world, excuses don’t stand because if you really want it bad, you’ll find your way! Circumstances should just make you stronger. Not weaker. Build from experience.
Hope for the best
Its a rather cloudy afternoon and I can see the branches of the trees outside my window sway to the hum of the breeze. My roommate has disappeared yet again. Perhaps because she is mortified I caught her clicking a self pic by looking at a mini mirror (atop a pile of books, before her) instead of studying for her exam (that’s tomorrow). Well, I was reading the Immortals Of Meluha by Amish (finally!!) so she thought I wont look sideways but I did and had to bite my lips shut to control my laughter.
So anyway, in my solitude, as I decided whether to study or work on my project… I noticed a medium built monkey with almost human-like grace…slide down via the pipe , hang onto the Chajja (sun shade) and perch itself lithely on the niche before my window grills. At first it surveyed the (rather disarrayed) interiors of my room with his bead-like, brown, searching eyes….then it leisurely scratched itself… keeping an eye out for me just in case I tried to shoo it away. But I was watching.
I usually get irritated or freaked out coz these monkeys really act crazy..but this one was peaceful and meant no harm. Just silently let itself doze off, leaning against the grills, its nimble fingers grasping a grill and its small head resting on them.
Few moments of co existence in peace. No judgements. Just silence. I felt kind of warm towards it. Like it was a friend. My highly crazy imagination wanted to believe we had been companions in a past life and that it knew we were from the Past while I tried “figuring” it out. Well, I have nothing to say about that.
Just that, it accompanied me in my solitude and watching it sleep was somehow too damn calming. And as I was writing the initial paragraphs, it woke up , looked at me… put its’s hand inside , touched the curtain and leaped onto the pipe, outside and disappeared.
Sometimes you feel a certain peaceful companionship that you cant explain but it leaves you with a tingling and warm feeling
This was one of those
Resistance. Reselience. Resolute.
Life is all about it
- Self Quote
Think clear. Don’t let your emotions come between you and the right decisions in life.
For example, you wanna attend this college event just to see a nice friend or someone you may have a thing for… and on the other hand, you have a Design Project submission the next morning. Your “emotions” will bubble up and overflow, your wonky sixth sense will go on an overdrive and your special whoever will text you AT THE SAME MOMENT as when you thought of him/her. Thing is, they never left your mind. So obviously you think its telepathy. Or maybe it is.
Anyway, your better judgment and tinker bell of a conscience will point towards your college bus which will take you back home.
Or, you have this hep movie on your weekend to – do list but you also promised to take your mum to a certain place. You know which one stands higher in your planner don’t you?
Laundry or Skyping buddies. TV or grocery list. Cleaning or napping. Excercise or yapping. Studying or sleeping. We can go on, can’t we?
Humans tend to get so damn confused that they finally give up and in hope of starting all over …ditch both options, instead and choose a completely different option. You have a choice to do what is right and what FEELS right to you at THAT point.
And then you wonder why the lady with the weird skirt got a pay rise and you didn’t or why your neighbour became the Soceity President or shy your friend’s grades are better than yours, etc?
But when you have to choose between buddies and work… I know it can be difficult to come to a consensus. The human mind is programmed to choose the “easy way out” or the “more fun” alternative.
My rebutal to that, “Good does not come easy” .. Architect Navanath Kannade’s (My Design Proffessor) words. An experienced mastermind he is.
Trust your judgment. People you like are gonna understand your commitment towards work. Infact, appreciate it. So don’t be a dumbass and leave everything to meet friends or hang out.
Learn to think straight. You may be wrong at times. But its okay, you’re just learning the art of making the right decisions so its okay if you splash and scribble a bit.
Just make sure you get what you plan, done. Hurt no one. Make priorities. You don’t wanna spiral down, do you?
One last quote for you and for me :
Don’t give up what you want MOST for what you want NOW!
“If you talk about a person a LOT , you tend to fall for them”
No Im not throwing a blase fact upon you. Its true. I’ve experienced it and so have you. Accept it. Basically, you tend to talk more about people you like and well, think about it more and eventually … you start “believing” you have a thing for them when it may be otherwise, ponder about it like a jobless fool and blab it out to the person… and splash a pale of water on the amazing friendship you shared. Bazinga.
So, if you think you’re falling for someone you MAY not get or isn’t likely going to be yours… you should stop blabbering about them. That should help. Dont alienate them. Just maintain a little distance until you’ve crossed the Sirens (greek myth ones) and are back into the open sea.
You never want to lose that best of yours if you think you can’t get back something more valuable (i.e a higher pedestal in their lives)
Think right. Act smart. Don’t be a loon and regret it all your life. Move on, buddy